02/28/2006 i think that i actually am like 180, but am holding water because of all the soy sauce i had last night. i was 180 on sunday, at least. :) i love this goin down biznez.
02/21/2006 -2.5 more lbs. perhaps it will slip off now? at least i'm not sitting still anymore. HYAH
02/14/2006 WOO 1 lb. WOO! hoody hoo mofos>>
02/10/2006 why won't this weight GET OFF OF ME?! i'm so frustrated. they keep telling me it's muscle. SEVERAL MONTHS OF MUSCLE?! grr. miami is in march. this is not looking good. :angry:
01/15/2006 well, since i joined the gym, i've gained weight, but now i'm going back down again. i don't understand my body. :shrug: i also think the holidays caught up to me. fall off - get back on ;)
12/08/2005 omg emergency emergency 911. freaking the fuck out! don't know what i'm doing wrong ... so joined the gym again. :( sad. very sad. also i have determined that "personality" is not what boys my age are looking for, and i am not sure that is ever what they are looking for. i wish i had gotten that dance spot ... would've felt better. now i don't feel like progress photos anymore. unprogress photos.
11/22/2005 ok - i'm playing with these same lbs, but at least the 3 that i gained over the last 2 weeks finally fell off, right?
to reward myself for getting back OP i got a huge tattoo on my back. it's a ladder that goes up my spine ... 1 rung at a time. i can do this. according to my goals in italics i am right on target. so here's a pep talk for myself: i will no longer play with these lbs. i am goin down. dammit.
11/08/2005 i'm super frustrated. up and down and up and down. grrr.
10/18/2005 well. i stayed pretty much the same right on through graduation, through my entire relationship with per right on through him breaking up with me, and now that i've started working full time in the "real world," all i'm doing is going up. so, i'm back. this time - i will make it down to the 140's. everything in italics is where i hope to be at that date. just setting some goals for myself. :)
12/29/2004 i've stopped freaking out quite so much b/c as you can see i'm just going back and forth at what appears to be my average weight. so i'm assuming most of this is water anyway. when i get back to school i hope this gets at least a little easier during the week, plus back to the gym :backflip: i still feel skinnier when i touch my stomach, but in my head ... well not so much.
12/15/2004 ok i'm freaking out. i've gained about 4 lbs since i've come home for the holidays. i told my mom to stop freaking feeding me like a horse last night though, so maybe i can be on the way back down. :eek:
182.5 and dropping again-took a break for about a month when i went home. i kept it under control and managed to not gain any while still eating out and getting a new boyfriend all in the same month (haha). he rules, and so do i with my new jeans from guess? and my new tank top from banana republic. boy does it feel good to be in those stores in normal sizes. i can even wear a size 11/12 in some stores!
ps - you see those jeans over there on the left that i have on in front of the suitcase? yeah - i can get into those again ;D
