12.06.2003

so anyway yeah i'm really starting to get pissed off
and this is what i'm going to do about it
write some damn poetry.

there will be no more bearing my soul
there will be no more bearing my heart
i haven't got enough time or patience for bullshit
so why should i even bother to start?
i wonder what you're thinking
what the fuck you're doing with your life
careful to pretend i don't care
careful to keep going about my business like i don't care if this falls apart.
i can't lie and say i will forget
if things don't work out it will be just like the rest.
the level of disappointment won't be that high
cause my expectations were . . . that this would be the same
this would be full of lies.

i want to express this to you but i can't keep my cool
my dark place grows and i feel like a fuckin fool
my heart stays numb and my excitement dies
i take the opportunity to light another fag,
die a little more,
push back into another life,
readily available for the taking,
regurgitating,
consuming whatever's left.
after it's all said and done and we have nothing anymore
i unwrap the emotion i'd enveloped myself in
and realize it was me trying to define netta again.

redefinition is the game i'm playing
mango tea
parliament lights
fraying feelings flee tonight's the night i set it all free.

jernet | 6:11:31 PM| comment

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12.04.2003

what have you done for me lately?

jernet | 10:21:22 AM| comment

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12.02.2003

fuckin weird
fuckin geared

jernet | 8:16:17 AM| comment

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