2.01.2003

ok - i wanna know who you people are
who's out there reading this thing?
email me zoephreak@hotmail.com
or leave a line in the guestbook :D

jernet | 2:05:41 PM| comment

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migraines were the worst thing god ever came up with
always ruining everything :(

jernet | 3:33:25 AM| comment

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1.31.2003

there's nothing like feeling like you've never really competed
feeling like you were never really a part of the competition
you never had a chance in the first place and you never have in your life
it's hard to become a part of the competition - how do you compete if you've never had to do it before?
how do you learn how to do it?
will you really feel safe if you ever become a part of it - you've never done it before and it's totally different.
i'm not sure if i want to become the person that will get treated differently.
the taste of it that i've had was weird, and irritating because of the constant stares.
it was like having no peace in your life until you were all by yourself.
you know what it's like from your half where no one really pays any attention.
but what's it like when they always give you the full payment plus a tip?

jernet | 1:50:10 PM| comment

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1.30.2003

isn't it great when someone finds a flaw in someone else, but really that flaw is greatest within them?
i think that's great.

jernet | 10:31:48 AM| comment

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1.29.2003

i don't know why i don't make you work for my friendship
i don't know why i let you constantly neglect it until you want to go out drinking
i don't know why i want to share a relationship with someone that seems to have little to no idea of . . . how to share
it's not fair to make me ride the roller coaster of wondering if you're really being my friend or if you're just someone i think i'm so close to
it's not so much fun thinking i'm just another peon to you
it's just not so much fun anymore.

jernet | 3:59:41 PM| comment

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1.27.2003

ps - for those of you who asked after him, thank you, but my main man (aka count coconut) has died. my parents took him to the doggie emergency room for surgery, and he, unfortunately, had heart failure on the operating table at 4:30 am last week. i'm gonna miss him more than i will miss most people after they're gone.

jernet | 9:46:38 PM| comment

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some things i've learned today:
i've given up on someone that i never should have even thought to reject. i'd really be insane to walk out on that relationship, and he was insane to let me. what a friendship to waste . . . strange things will be given and epiphanies will be had independtly from institutions.

use your reason and you will find yourself a true princess.

jernet | 9:44:42 PM| comment

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hated it:
complaining that has gone on for years on the same topic - go somewhere else already
emerson - until i was done and thought, well . . . duh!
waiting for people to get their act together when you've done your part and could've completed it a 2nd and 3rd time
ice on the street
cracks in my windshield (and in yours)
running out of time to complete something longterm - something i shoulda gone elsewhere for a long time ago
suction cups that don't suck


gonna solve all my problems.
and go to cancun for spring break. *hopes*

jernet | 6:58:00 PM| comment

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