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10.10.2002omg i think i may die i'm so full uggggggggggggghwaves this weekend letters sent 1 midterm down - 3 to go uggggggggggggggggh. >: ( jernet | 6:35:28 PM| comment *** 10.08.2002so what did i get for my birthday so far you ask? many many happy wishes, flowers from mom and dad, money from mom and dad, calls from mom and dad, cards from mom and dad, sunflower + beautiful card from dot, funny e-card and regular card from lyndsay, meaningful card that made me :D from lauren, a freakin homemade cake from sarah that is so perfect and is so my favorite kind that i wonder if she's been raiding my kitchen @ home, i got a crazy pair of undies and an AWESOME necklace and dinner from nat and charlotte, and i got this incredible set of happy birthdays from my cs fam, and i know that there's more on the way, and i know that i don't really need anything at all.it is so encouraging that people really do care, and that i believe they care and don't think, "wow you're just pretending to care if i have a good birthday or not." it's amazing how people can bring you back from cynicism and remind you why you smile @ them and at everyone else every day. so what do you get for the girl that has everything? i guess something from the heart that will make me remember why i want to care about you . . . the best present you could get for me is to just call someone up and remind them you love them. and i know that's utopian, and sweet, and cliche, and disgusting to some people all at the same time - but i honestly am ok with everyone today. and i think that i will attempt to blow away the blips on my radar that have hurt me much in the past. not to forget them but to forgive them and to forgive myself for the misgivings that i so outlandishly and foolishly commit. somebody help me through these next few weeks cause they're going to be >crazy< jernet | 11:11:38 PM| comment *** it's so strange to know such eloquent people. it's so weird to know this one guy who writes things i could never dream of wording in the same way. he dreams of discovering what the world is really like, and all i want to tell him is that maybe he should just relax and remember to breathe. i feel like he's so caught up in his mind's constant communication that he never takes the time to turn it off, and so he never really gets any rest. we're going out for ice cream. jernet | 11:05:11 PM| comment *** |
