9.21.2002

as a side note - and really as a main point
i have a beautiful friend who writes very beautiful things
and i want to tell him (if he ever reads this) that i think he's 'great' as just the man he is :")
mr jb that is for you sir. *salutes*

jernet | 3:13:03 AM| comment

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some people you meet in your life and they're just people that you pass by and say hi to when you see them later.
i wish i would quit getting this feeling of, "PLEASE don't stop to talk to me" -- i only get it with people who have shown their lack of concern for people around them . . .
that's a little difficult to explain, but i guess i just want people to be genuine with each other, and kind to each other. however, i don't want to feel like i'm walking around with my hands over my eyes peeking every now and then.
i've met not a lot, but a fair amount, of people my time that has passed here at wake. i hope i'm getting better at judging which ones are really out to care and which ones will just vote for things and blindly walk away.
i have so much to say in this space. so much that i want to say. and so much that i just feel is weighing down and i won't ever get out in the "right" words.
i guess what it's all coming down to is that i have to remember that there is something beautiful in almost everyone, but i also have to remember that there are some bad seeds that will lie until they've used me up back to the core that i know is in there.
i continue my message and crusade for kindness -- it's cool to laugh, joke around, make fun of things . . . i guess
inner turmoil of a college sophomore *laugh*

i guess i just won't forget to smile. :) . . . give more and expect less, the conquest continues.

jernet | 3:12:04 AM| comment

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9.20.2002

. . . and the day of the astronomy test arrives. i'm up an hour early and i'm about to continue studying. pray for me.
and also - pray that i don't rip up any more toes *laugh*

jernet | 8:54:32 AM| comment

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9.17.2002

hmm . . . well today i ripped the cuticle off my right big toe with the kickstand of my bicycle
i know i'm the epitome of smoothness
*curtsies gracefully and then falls over*
major anxiety: astronomy test
pray for me now and at the time of the actual event please (friday @ 10am)
not much else to report - total science was good, sound sucked cause marly marl sucks. and people that lie to you once will probably lie to you again.
schwoo.

jernet | 12:46:45 AM| comment

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